My Head Hurts

Why is it that people aren't happy, unless you continually prove yourself better than the last thing you did? I live to please and no one will be pleased. I'm excluding in this my family and friends. I'm really just meaning the big bad world of consumers...why can't they look at their own lives...their own hard work...and see their own falures...before they start complaining to someone else who is trying just as hard as they are?! Do they think that I am trying to delay things...or that would rather play solitare than do my job?? NO...news flash to all...most people genuinely want to do a good job, whether or not they can due to work load or their job limitations is a whole other story...so cut some slack world!

I work my tail off one night before I collapse in sleep, and the next day I hear..."why isn't this other thing done?" When the last trumphet sounds, I'm out-a-here. Click...and sign out...see ya!

Emily

Emily Morehead blogging?....Really?

Well...I have officially set up my "blog". I can't believe I actually said that. Me?? A blog?? Those that know me would be shocked!! I can barely answer the phone...let alone keep up on a blog! But here I am!

Since this is "my blog", I'm not going to worry about saying too little or boring you with detail after detail. Because...if it gets to be too much and you have to get on with your day, No worries! It's OK! It's all gravy! I'm going to put aside my own insecurities and write what comes to mind...hopefully I don't offend anyone... and I already apologize if I do! There may be no frills but there will be bad grammar, spelling mistakes, run-on sentences and lots of "...". Yes, I know I was a Literature Major, don't judge me :-)

So, this being my official first post, I will keep it short and simple. I'm here and have signed on not because I felt an overwhelming desire to share my story...or even because I wanted to keep record of my life. I'm here doing this because God asked me to. Yeah...that's right...I talk to God :-) Although that sounds crazy (to some) it really is very normal in my life. I'm not saying it always happens so easily, or that God and I keep up a regular conversation throughout the day. But there are times that I hear him (his voice) so clearly...that I have to look to see if he is standing next to me.

So God asked me to share my thoughts online. At first I thought, oh great, I'm going to need to create a website...set up a host...pay a yearly fee. As I thought more about it in that moment it became very daunting. But God's next words to me where "Trust Me". These are two words I hear alot from Him and He never fails....so I did. I trusted him and moved forward. I bought a book on "Building my own website" found an html editor, I picked the template and started the basic framework for the website. All this was taking lots of time and often took place in the middle of the night...

...Let me back up, for those of you who don't know me and my husband or we haven't kept in touch (sorry :-), We have a 7 1/2 month son Andrew. Patrick works full time and me part-time (at home). To sum up...we are busy! So as I started this website process...I began to realize that I really didn't have time to put towards it. I kept trusting and kept praying that God would 'create' the time even though I couldn't find it. I was up in the middle of the night working my regular job and by the time I was done with that, had no energy for the website. Waaah...waah...waah..cry me a river, right? :-) Sorry, I'm getting to my point here, bare with me :-)

So...He originally asked me to start recording my thoughts online in late January, and here I was in late March with nothing to really show for all my efforts than a blank website template. Yes, it was frustrating...and No, I didn't stop praying but I was loosing faith.

Faith...it is such a simple and pretty word. If you could attribute the word 'faith' to a person, they would be one of those quite but wise people that everyone listens intently to when they speak. They would ALWAYS pull through and never break a promise, they would raise their head in adversity and never loose hope in the valley. I so wish I could say that 'faith' was easy for me. But doubt creeps in and that is what happened...I started to doubt if I actually heard God request. And that is where my best laid plans usually fail. Early this week I sent out a "last stitch effort" prayer to God, I realized I was loosing my motivation and his original words to me were getting lost.

So I prayed and as usual God answered. I came to my parents house this weekend to Celebrate my father's birthday. While here my mother read me a post from a family friends blog...it was inspiring to her and she wanted to share it with me. With Andrew in my arms drinking a bottle...I have to admit I was only halfway listening. But halfway through I started to listen. I looked up and saw the the post on the site, I listened to the words our friend had offered...I couldn't believe...this was it! That was all he was asking me to do, it is so like me to make things harder than they have to be!

So...for those of you who stuck with me through that whole revelation...here I am! Just a blog, a pre-made..and most importantly FREE way for me to "share my thoughts online"

God is SO good!

Emily :-)